7 March, 2017
If I could give you any advice, that is what I would tell you: “don’t do yoga!” Yes you are reading right. DO NOT DO YOGA! Why you may ask?
Well… I am Maria and I started practising yoga 4 years ago. I have this really awesome, super fit and totally ‘in tune with life’ friend and she was really into yoga. She told me that yoga gave her a different outlook in life and more understanding of her body and herself. At that point, I was training like crazy at the gym, and I didn’t particularly think that my body was great, or that I understood my body that well.
That is why I turned up to the closest yoga studio near work to make my life easier. I got there and felt like a fish out of water. You don’t know me, but if you did, you would’ve known that I rarely feel like this (you can basically throw me into almost any situation and I am sweet as).
I love sports and I play just about anything, and even the things I only just started (like tennis) I am actually pretty good at. So then, picture Maria: going into this yoga class and not feeling confident. It was a c-r-a-z-y experience for me.
However, because I paid for 3 classes, I did go to the other 2 (don’t get me wrong, I would NOT have gone again if I hadn’t paid beforehand). It was then that something happened… I swear it is hard to explain what and how, but I began to feel really good, and I felt happier.
Again, if you know me, you know that I have a lust for life. This feeling was totally different. It came from inside. I became more focused, life started unfolding a lot easier and I became calmer with myself and with others. I started to practice more and more.
I stopped when life was too noisy, and then I started again because life got noisier. Then I felt it again: the happiness, the calmness, the good vibes.
Traumas started coming up and I had to start working on my internal rubbish. “Maria, you are so stupid! Why did I do this wrong? Are you ever going to learn?” I’m sure you’re no stranger to that chatter voice.
But because I learnt to control my breath better, I could control that chatter voice. It changed into something like this: “Yeah I screwed up. Cool. These are the lessons I learnt from it. Well done Maria, you did this! Well done babe. I am proud of you. Now here’s how you can make it better…”.
Crazy, isn’t it?
Back to my body: the very reason I started yoga. I began to love it, honestly, I began to understand the feedback it gives to me. Yes, sometimes I am still not the nicest about my body and I have came a long way towards loving myself.
This yoga journey is not easy, so please don’t underestimate the effort you actually have to make. And the transformation that happens to you. I am aware that staying where you are and doing the things you are comfortable with is a lot easier than having to start this crazy journey on loving yourself, clearing the internal rubbish, and being more open to life.
That is why I am telling you: “do not do yoga.” You will start an incredible journey with yourself, and it won’t be easy.
You might support people in their efforts, acknowledging the truth that there’s plenty of room for everyone.
You might measure your worth by your dedication to your path, not by your success or failure. You might battle your demons instead of battling your gifts. That is why I am telling you: “don’t do yoga.”
You might change your life.
Totally up to you.
But if you are a rebel and willing to take the risk, I am here, at Return to Form in Ponsonby, leading our yoga classes, every Sunday at 9:30 a.m. and Monday 6:30 p.m. You can find out more about yoga here.